Kimi no omoe(Your Feelings)
Namura nai youru(sleepless nights)
Kimi wo dakishimata iko(I want to hug you know)
Hajime kara kito kizueit (When I first realized)
Itsuka kono koi no owari ga kuru koto (I know one day this love would end)
Futari konna pose bakrai totamo(Both of us just only uses poses)
Umaku iku hazuwanaikoto wo(Of course this won't work out.)
~SMAP
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Soul Mates are Forever
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I’m going to do it, I’m going to confess to him tonight. I liked him since the first day I met him, I told my brother that I liked him a lot but he just answered, “Your too young to be in love Hikari.” I believed my brother when he said that so I just thought we were friends but when he moved back to here, my hart got faster each time I saw him, my head was spinning every time I saw him, now I know it was true love. I love you Takeru Takeshi. Tonight is the only chance just two of us alone without any interruption like my brother did so many times. Takeru and I are in America visiting Mimi-san but we wanted stay a little longer in New York City so we rented a hotel room, pretty decent actually, and since it was cheaper to get one room then two were sharing a room. It was Takeru-kun’s suggestion not mine! Honest, so my hart is betting faster and faster thinking in the same room, different beds, but the same room.
“Hikari?” Tailmon called me waving her claw in front of my face. Oh yeah the Digimon was here too, so that made it a little easy for me not to get that blushed for sharing the same room with Takeru-kun.
“Yeah, Tailmon? What is it?” I asked her.
“It’s time to take a bath.” She gestured me to the bathroom, Takeru-kun is out buying snacks that we can munch on tonight. I nodded and went into the hotel bath. After we got in and everything she asked me a question, "Hikari, Takeru no koto suki?"
"Yeah I do, actually but I'm afraid I'll tell him."
"Why?" As she climbed into the bathtub with me too.
I have no idea but if I say that Tailmon will say, "Hikari you afraid?" That is probably true. It is destiny that Takeru and I get together though why I have this strange felling that we might not?
"Hikari? You are afraid aren't you." Tailmon was right on the spot and all I did was nodded. Then she says those words that all friends will say, "I'm going to help you."
I blinked but smiled at my Digimon partner. Not knowing what she's going to do this time.
After she said that. She got out of the bath and went out of the door. I asked where she was going but all she said that, you will find out soon. I just nodded and enjoyed my bath a little longer.
Then I decided to get out so after the usual of dressing into my pajamas, brushing teeth and hair, I opened the bathroom door but I heard a voice that let me open it just a touch. The voice it was Patamon asking Takeru-kun a question.
"Takeru~~ who do you like?"
"When did this subject come up?" Takeru was giving him his drink.
Patamon just continued, "Because I heard form Yamato-san that you liked someone. And he was really depressed that his younger brother was liking someone other then him." Then Patamon gave back Takeru his drink. Takeru-kun laughed at the idea about Yamato-san stocking him. I got to admit I laugh at that information, because my brother and Yamato-san always stocks Takeru-kun and me everywhere! I don't now why or how we convinced them to bring us here to America with out them.
"Yeah I do like someone." Takeru answered while laughing really hard on the statement before, but Patamon pouted. The subject went on and the question I was curious of too. Patamon asked, "Who?"
Takeru stopped his drink and put it down against the lamp, looked at Patamon so lovingly and yet determined, "Promise you won't tell?"
"No duh~! Takeru, I will never tell who is it?"
" Sora-san. Takenouchi Sora."
Uso, uso, its a lie right? Say its a lie and then, please soon say 'Though I love Hikari-chan know.' I waited and didn't come out at all. I just stood there staring in a black space. Wait didn't Takeru-kun asked to be alone with Sora-san on the day we had a party to go to America. Then did he...no it can't be did he confessed to her that day. Naza watashi jana no, Takeru-kun?
"I thought you liked Hikari-chan." Patamon told Takeru, then I woke up and waiting for his answer and I think this is the most shocking news I ever heard, " She is my best friend. And that's all I fell for her."
I know can't win from Sora-san. She's too perfect. She has nice body, great personality, never get sick that easily, never gets in trouble...I look up to Sora-san all the time. I lost, no wonder Takeru-kun loves her instead of me. Look at me I just love teasing people, always get lost, and something always gets wrong with me. I lost the battle in a minute. If it was Miyako-san I can stand it, if it was Mimi-san then I think I can win. But Sora-san? It will be a miracle if I can win from her.
I just sit down against the counter and started to cry. When did the last time I cry? I think it was when I got lost from Oniichan and thought the he didn't love me. But he did, but but why I'm crying know? Ta..Takeru-kun...Then I heard him said more. I quickly wiped the tears out of my eyes. I needed to hear more and to understand more.
"So when did you liked Sora-san?" Patamon asked.
"...the first day when I got at the Digital world....and when she cried that she hadn't have no love I confessed to her..." Takeru was ling back on his bed and smiling dreamily.
"What did you said."
"Patamon weren't you there? Don't you remember?" As Takeru-kun he had a hit of sadness in his voice. Though it looked like Patamon thought for a second then just shook his head.
Takeru-kun just sighed and sit back then closed his eyes, "I said, 'Boku, Sora-san ga suki da yo.' I meant every word." Though he opened it again then he said more, "Though when I again confessed at her...she only looked really sad and confused."
Though I saw that he grabbed Patamon and hugged him tightly. I can only hear a whisper. I don't know what he said, but another impotent issue what should I do know, I'm stuck. Lets see the guy that you liked a lot is sad and finding out that he likes someone that I know I don't have any power to beat. But it looks like he wants time alone with his partner. I hope I won't regret this, so I grabbed the handle and opened the door. I tried to act confused and not knowing what happen. Just act like I took a really good bath,
"Takeru-kun~, the bath was really nice. You should go in soon." Though the next thing I noticed he looked into my eye. In his face he was tiring to smile and looking happy. Though I saw through. God I hate being his best friend and at the same time liking him. Though I spoke before my mind said anything, "Go into the bath latter we need to talk!"
Takeru-kun, just smiled, "How did you know Hikari-chan?"
"Well, since we know each other way too much I guess, so I guessed."
"Like Taichi-san and Sora-san." Takeru-kun laughed at the comment. I smirked though counter attacked him, "No, the teasing part is me and you who teases Daisuke-kun." Takeru-kun laughed at it.
Then he stated, "We do make a good pair." If there is way I can travel back in time I would of taken this moment and stopped myself.
Instead I said, "Does that pair mean as couple? Takeru-kun I love you." It felt like the moment stopped. I was in my pajamas one lag on his bed and grabbing to his nightshirt. While Takeru-kun was in a little out back. Afraid to touch me or do anything. Though the next thing I noticed was that he took my hand that was on his shirt and put it down gently. Got up and ran out of the room.
When I heard the door slam, I started to cry. Each tear came down slowly before I can internally cry onto his bed. I was an idiot. Why did I confess to him like that?! I know he only sees me only as a best friend. Why it can't be more? Why can't I be Sora-san? Why did this happen to me? I really hate this. It's my entire fault. I can't run to oniichan who would always help me. Tailmon is out buying drinks so she isn't here. I need Takeru-kun I need him to calm down. Tasukete Takeru-kun. Onagai. Please. I cried more yelling his name hopping that he would come back to me and hold me. Though some where in my mind that I know that won't happen. I felt a little pat on my head. I looked up it was Patamon. His words were, "Takeru would be back Hikari-chan. Don't worry, Takeru needs time. So please be happy." I did a little smile. How can any one not smile on this little Digimon trying his best to a crybaby girl and his partner just ran off. I smiled and nodded.
It has been like an hour when Takeru-kun came back to the room. By then I pretty much cleaned myself up, yeah my eyes still looked red though I was all okay at the time being. Though what I noticed he was caring was Tailmon and four drinks of soda. Tailmon noticed my red eyes and come to me. She just came and hugged me and I hugged her back. She looked into my eyes and said, "Gomen Hikari it was all my fault for..." I was even more confused. Though Takeru-kun caught in and just handed me the soda.
He said, "Lets all sit at the table near the window and let's talk about it." So Patamon on top of Takeru-kun's head, me caring Tailmon sat on the only two seats. There was a moment of an acquired pause there. I gulped my throut waiting for him to start. Though instead of him starting it was Tailmon, "Hikari, it was all my fault." I looked at her at a confused way then asked, "Why? You did nothing."
Then Tailmon looked at Takeru in a quick second then to my eyes, "Hikari do you remember what you told me at the bathtub?" I thought for a second. Remember that I confessed my love to Takeru to Tailmon then she left out a little earlier then I expected and I asked her where she was going. She replayed, "You would find out." Then I looked at her more confused.
"When I got out of the door. Patamon was they're laying around in his good mood. I came up to him and asked him to do me a favor and I told him, "Patamon I'm going out for a walk a little bit. Though can I ask you something? Well Patamon nodded his head meaning a yes, I told him to ask who did Takeru liked." Then she looked at me all sad. Then she took a deep breath and continued, "Well, I did went out for a walk outside then came back. Thinking there would be a great rejoicing and you two would be having a kissy fit. So I came down to the main entrance through the lobby. Well when I got the lobby I saw Takeru on the phone. In truth I thought this was weird why would Takeru would be on the phone when his new girl friend is upstairs? So I went closer to him and heard him.."
She tried to talk more though Takeru-kun caught off saying, "I was talking with Sora-san on the phone." My hart stopped. I was afraid what would Takeru-kun's answer would be. There was two solution I could call it the night and never hear what happen. Or just keep my mouth shut and listen what was it about. Takeru-kun's blue eyes looked straight at my brown ones. I saw it that inside there was a cold icy blue sadness in him.
He took a deep breath, "After you confess to me I left the room. I'm sorry about that Hikari-chan but I needed time to think a lone for a while. Though I really needed someone to talk to and the only person I can think was Oniichan. So I asked the clerk what's the international phone number was. He was surprised though I said it's an emergency. He gave it to me. I went to the pay phone and dialed the international one and home. Do you know who got the phone?" He smiled at me, then I knew it in the next instant. It was Sora-san on the phone.
He looked at me then smiled, "See you know me to well. On the phone when I told Sora-san who it was there was an queried pause I wanted to ask her what she was doing at Oniichan's apartment but I heard in the back ground I noticed these words "Sora dinner is getting cold, come on lets eat.' That was Oniichan. He doesn't know that I love Sora-san or I was on the phone. Then Sora-san said it was from me. I heard Oniichan quickly came to the phone and started to sound cheerful all of the sudden."
"Takeru how are you doing? Are you keeping Hikari-chan safe?"
I smiled over the phone, "Yeah I am." Though I was doing a flat lie to him, I was hurt at the moment but thought hey it could be a different reason why Sora-san is at Oniichan's house. "So tell me how's America?"
"Good. Oniichan how long did you have Sora-san over for supper?"
"Oh since this afternoon. She's a great person and insisted that she cook. She's a great cook." He said everything that I know about her. I know she's a great person and cook. I know her smell its sweet and innocent. Her smile would lift up your sprits in a day. I need her. Though Oniichan would never know.
Though he whispered me these words to me, "Tonight I'm going to confess my feelings to her. Wish me luck." I was in shock for couple of seconds. Though it was for my brother I needed him to be happy as well as I do. So I told him 'good luck'." Takeru-kun stopped and looked out side of our window of the city lights. Then he continued, "Sora-san does like Oniichan if not she wouldn't have gone over there for supper." Though in truth he was hiding his tears. He started to talk more, "Though its weird isn't it. People would have never guessed I would of liked Sora-san. She was my angel, but.."
"Takeru-kun, please don't say any more." I tried to gulp my tears away, I think there was still in me that I didn't left out yet. Its too painful to hear from the guy you like calling some one else an angel. Though he looked at me and touched my cheeks, "Hikari-chan don't cry. If you do cry I would of broken a dear promise to that person."
I blinked and then asked, "What was the promise to who?" He again touched my cheeks to stop crying, "When Piedmon was truing everyone into keychains, and you, Gomamon, Sora-san, and I were left. Sora-san said to me, 'Takeru-kun! You're the only one to save Hikari-chan! So run!' I wanted to fight with her and be by her side but she said 'you have to do it Takeru-kun. You're the only one! Promise me you would protect Hikari-chan!' Then you know the rest." I smiled remember that whole adventure and all, so that's why Takeru-kun always protected me through Sora-san's promise but not by love.
"Hikari-chan, I know I can't love you like that but when you need anything I would be there for you." He cupped his hands to my cheek. Though I nodded and spoke, "I want to be there for you too, Takeru-kun. If you are way too painful to see Sora-san and you Oniichan I want to be there for you." He smiled sheepishly.
That was all happen that night. It was just a secret between us, no one else knew except four of us. I need to be strong, like how Takeru-kun is strong too. Daisuki yo, Takeru-kun. Though it might take a little bit longer to switch my feelings of three years to friendship.
Next day:
"So that's the Empire State building.." Mimi-san said as she was pointing out the scenery around New Your City. Though she kept looking at Takeru-kun and me curiously.
Though I asked, "Mimi-san is there something wrong? You keep looking at Takeru-kun and me?"
"No, though are you two SURE nothing happened last night between you too?" Mimi-san asked us bunch of times all ready.
Takeru-kun and I looked at each other for a second then laughed. Mimi-san blinked some more and got a little mad that we were not including her in.
Though more on the tour she asked us, "So you guise want me to take any picture's of you two for the memory of this trip?"
We again looked at each other and shrugged but in that short time we did a miniature conversation, "so should we look like we are a couple to get Daisuke-kun jealous?" Takeru-kun asked me and I replayed, "Sure. And so they all believed that something between us?"
Then we smirked, of course this was all and only in our minds, Mimi-san didn't hear it but she took our picture any ways. Here do you guise like it?
Though as months past and my feeling to Takeru-kun did changed into friendship little by little. Every time I look at Takeru-kun when Sora-san and Yamato-san is around he can't bare it but he is doing this for his dear brother. He still loves her, even she didn't return his feelings. Yes, after we got back from Japan a month letter Sora-san replayed to Takeru-kun's confession. Takeru-kun smiled said it was okay and he told her to be happy with his brother. He meant every word of it. Then he ran off. I know he cried but didn't do it in front of any one. Except Patamon probably. But today I hope it doesn't make it worst.
"Hikari! We're going to be late! Come on!" I hear Oniichan knocked onto my door.
I quickly got up and went to the door, "Gomen. Though it was nice of Yamato-san's father to take a picture of all of us with our Digimon." I said that while hugging Tailmon and having Agumon by our feet walking.
Oniichan nodded, "Yeah, its cool! Though I hope Yamato and Sora aren't going to be in their love love mode. It's sicking to see sometimes." Oniichan told me.
I smiled but inside I sighed, Sora-san is very popular she has two guys who I'm very close with fell in love with her but yet she chooses Yamato-san. When we got to the TV station all the chosen kids were sitting around and talking with their digimon. Then Ishida-san came to us clapping his hands telling us to go into our position for our picture. While we're getting settled in the conversation went like this:
"Ken! Come with me and lets hold your D-3!" Daisuke-kun pulled his best friend.
"Ken-kun! Wait, lets link arms together!" Miyako-san blushed a little but made a face saying 'PLEASE' though Ichijouji-kun sighed and agreed. He was between the two people that accepted him first after Kaizer. Wormmon just tired to look cute so Ichijouji-kun would comment how cute Wormmon looked then any other person.
"Koushirou-kun we must be next to each other!" Mimi-san pulled Koushirou-san's arm so he can be next to her.
"Mi--Mimi-san..does it really matter?" Koushirou-san asked her with a sweat drop.
"YES IT DOES! To prove the world that you finally gotten taller then me!" Mimi-san pointed and dragged Koushirou-san.
"Tasukete yo, Taichi-san, Jyou-senpai, and Tentomon!" Koushirou-san was pleaing for help to the three people he's close to.
Though Oniichan was fighting a little with Daisuke-kun, "I CAN'T BE IN THE BACK! I'M 01'S MAIN CHARACTER!"
"Tai--Taichi-senpai, calm down. You can be behind me." Daisuke-kun told him.
Though Oniichan smiled, "Good job Daisuke. You had the courage to stand up to me! You still deserve my Goggles." And he put his arms around him. I kind of laughed at the spot. Daisuke-kun is like Oniichan's little brother, though of course in sibling world I'm his first.
"Jyou! Let be in the back!" Gomamon told his partner.
Jyou smiled at him and moved there, Iori-kun was next to Miyako-san but he was playing with Amardalomon. I'm happy to see that sight. Since Iori-kun always acted way muter then his age, and probably more then us but I'm glad he is turning back to a nine-year-old kid.
Though I started to wonder where should I be? Defiantly next to Oniichan but he had his hands on Daisuke-kun's and Ichijouji-kun's shoulders. Then my eyes went to Sora-san and Yamato-san. They were next to each other but he had his arms around Sora-san. Sora-san blushed a little but smiled. I thought for a second, if Yamato-san is there, and he must of persuade Takeru-kun next to him. He doesn't know Takeru-kun's feelings to Sora-san. I dashed towards Takeru-kun. He first just stand still with nothing since Patamon was on the floor not on his head. I tapped his shoulders and turned to me. I smiled, we didn't talk but our conversation went like this:
"Are you okay?" I asked him.
"Sorata" He replayed.
"Want to hold hands? That would make it fell better." I smiled at him
"Sure. Though again this time want to mess people's mind up?" Takeru-kun smiled.
This smile is not his usuall 'angel' smile the other unknown one. Yup his devil smile. I did a quickly one too. So we grabbed our hands together and stood in front of the camera.
In a quick second I noticed Yamato-san looking at Takeru-kun. He smiled sheepishly too. Takeru-kun says that his brother doesn't know his feelings, well in my mind; he knows about it and worried about Takeru-kun for a long time. He thought we were together, so did many people. In truth we are just friends. Yes, I can finally admit to myself that. I used to say it but with no feelings to it. Remember I said it would take a while to get used to it. Know it has, I can say it out loud and with a felling.
Takeshi Takeru is my soul mate. He is my soul mate by being there for me and being a best friend that we were hopping to have. We can be couples but we know we both prefer to be the best of friends any one had every seen.
Then the cameraman said, "Everyone ready?"
"YES!" We all shouted at once.
"Okay read and cheese..."
*Click*
After a few weeks, we have gotten the picture through mail. When Oniichan saw this he was treating to call Takeru-kun and murder him. Though some how I calmed him down. But I took a look at the picture and did a quick smirk. Then put this down onto Oniichan's and mine desk. Walked out of the room thinking of going out for a little bit. After I close the door I thought for a second and another smile formed on my lips. Oniichan noticed and asked, "Hikari why are you smiling?"
"Its nothing Oniichan." Then went out.
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Minna gombata na. Remember love is not what most people think it would be.
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The Picture:
The End.
Note: I really thought Takeru and Hikari-chan was going out and heck I wanted them to be a couple until I fell in love with TakeruXSora. Since then my mind converted that Takeru and Hikari-chan were best friends, though while I was just thinking and thought, what if Hikari-chan liked Takeru but Takeru liked Sora-san. This fic came into play. I pounded for days that should Sora-san like Takeru-kun back or not? Then I saw that "official picture" I smiled devilly and thought heck why not she likes Yamato! Also a fic in Japanese had Hikari->Takeru->Sora X Taichi and that took place during the third Digimon movie.
Then it clicked to me what if that picture Mimi-chan took of Takeru and Hikari-chan had a different meaning, because they both looked pretty sad or hiding it. Then boom I started to write this fic. It took me couple of months it was on and off, but I finished so I'm happy that's it^^.
The lyrics are from SMAP, a six boy-band that was famous in Japan like 5-6 years ago. They did opening songs from Hime-chan no Ribbon, Akazukuin Chacha, and Kodomo no ommocha, and plus many more.