Note: This is some what a continuation of "Sora's Dilemma" on my Kriban for 7950 hits. Though this is Hikari's point of view on her dilemma. Also DIGIMON WOULD NEVER EVER BELONGS TO ME! It belongs to Toai animation.

Hikar's Dilemma


“Hope and Light, that has a great zing to it!” Miyako-san was talking to me as we were walking home from school.
I looked at her in a confused face then she continued, “Think about it Hope and Light are the two things that are closest to the “god” of the digital world. Also its so cute how Takeru-kun always wants to protect you.” Miyako-san smiled at the fact.
I looked at her and sighed. Okay so it was true that Takeru-kun and I were going out until the day Dogamon called for me. I don’t know after that day him and I are in love but not the “in” love about boy friends and girl friends. Something more then best friends but less then a couple.
Miyako-san noticed that I wasn’t looking too happy so she asked why. I just simply replay the usual, “Nothing, I was just thinking that’s it.” Still looked down. Miayko-san just couldn’t figure out so she just sighed and we walked in silence till we heard a voice.
“Hikari-san, Miyako-kun kownichiwa.” Both Miyako and I turned our heads. We saw Koushirou-san. He was smiling holding his school bag with one arm. She and I both smiled at him though Miyako spoke first, “Kownichiwa Izumi-senpai!” And I just nodded my head to him to show respect. Koushirou-san spoke, “This is unusual it’s five and I thought that shougakusai gets out at two-thirty.”
“Well, we went to the digital world today and found out something that’s really impotent.” Miyako spoke very quickly and fast. Koushirou smiled at her and asked what was it that they found out.
“About how each of our mounshou is impotent and the reason why. Also what we should just break the dark towers and not worry about the holy stones at all.” Miyako-san summed it up. I just looked at them.
Sometimes I really wished I was Miyako-san she doesn’t worry about getting put into a different world, always have courage, and lastly not to worry about density at all. She can choose who ever she liked to when she grows up. Though not me even though I don’t really love Takeru-kun any more I was summed to be with him. Why? Because that’s what everyone says. I just hate density. That word should just die and be vanished forever. Just vanish please. I gripped my randosaru straps tightly and not specking a word. Just be still and do nothing.
“...........-san? Hikari-san? Hikari-san?” I noticed a hand moving across my face. I snapped and looked it was Koushirou-san. He looked worried so did Miyako-san. Me? I just pulled my best smile, “Nani?”
“Hikari-chan! What’s wrong with you we called your name bunch of time and you didn’t respond to us at all!” Miyako-san was looking at me very wordily.
“Are you sick?” As Koushirou-san put his hand on my forehead My heart started to beat loud. Wait. What just happened Koushirou-san just put his hand on my forehead a big surprise he did that when I was eight.
Also why know I’m felling my heat beating loud? He looked at Miyako-san, “It looks like she has a slight temperature.”
“Then we should carry her and take her home!” Miyako-san stated.
Koushirou-san had a little smile though just shook his head, “Miyako-kun it’s really nice of you to do that and I know you are worried about Hikari-san. Though from Hikari-san’s house to yours are far away. I would take Hikari-san home and you should go to because your parents would be worried if you don’t go home before six.” Koushirou-san stated. Miyako-san thought for a minute then turned to me.
“Gomen Hikari-chan I can’t go back though I would see you tomorrow. And if anything bad happends I would fly to you soon” She left looking back and waving to both of us.
I waved back then Koushirou-san tapped my shoulder and kneeled down. He was in the position of a piggy back ride. I was startled and said, ”Koushiro-san!?” He looked at me in a confuse tone,
“Hikari-san since you are sick and I see there’s no condition of you walking all the way back home. Ride my back and I would take you. And if you faint Taichi-san would kill me.”
I stepped back. Afraid and didn’t know to what to do, though I gulped my throat and said to him, “I’m just warning you that I’m heavy.” Koushirou-san just shook his head that was meaning of ‘no’ though I got up on his back. It was in this situation for a long while then I finally asked him, “Koushirou-san.”
“Nanda suka Hikari-san?” He asked me in his kind voice. I have no clue what came over me though I asked him, “Do you believe in density?”

There was a moment of silence on him. I guess he was
thinking of what should he say. Then the replay was, “Density is an interesting word.” My face was in a questionable looks. How can density be an interesting word? Its simple you just know that person is the one for you. Rather you like it or not. How can it be interesting! Though I kept my mouth shut and waited for him to continue to speck.
“Density......you think you have it but you don’t.”
“Huh?” was my first words of it.
“Its hard to predict what’s going to happen in the future all the time. When the first time when we encounter the Digimon we didn’t know that we were going to be the one to save the world. Also Hikari-san the future can change easily.”
I know what his words meant but still it didn’t answer my question. ‘Do you believe in density’ I need more then ‘its an interesting word.’ Though I mumbled, “It can’t change easily on love.”
“I see your problem know.” I was startled. Did he..no he didn’t. How can he hear that far? How? When? What!! “Hikari-san your mumble was in my ear directly. Love that’s your problem? Did you have a fight with Takeru-kun? Or something.” Koushirou-san was in a worry tone.
Though enough is enough. I had it. “Koushirou-san please get me down.” I said in a hurry hurt voice. Koushirou-san just looked at me in a confessed look. Though he obeyed and put me down. I looked into his eyes and started to do something that I don’t know if I wished to take this moment back or not. Though my mouth just opened, “WHY IS IT ALWAYS TAKERU-KUN AND ME! HOPE AND LIGHT ARE SO GOOD TOGETHER! OR…THAT HE DID SAVED ME ONCE BUT THAT’S IT! WE ARE JUST GOOD FRIENDS!!” I took couple of more breaths, I felt tears coming to me and started to speck more, “ I want to choose who I want to love! I hate the word! Why can’t I choose!! Why I need to live up to the people’s expectation of who I want to love and to be with! I…”
Then I turned away, I started to run faster and faster to get out of this mess. Why I’m an idiot. Why couldn’t I blow up to Miyako-san my best friend or Takeru-kun? Why it was Koushirou-san that I blew up at? Why did it hurt the most when he said me and Takeru-kun was a couple. While I was okay when any one else thought, but not Koushirou-san.
I ran and ran before I noticed I was in front of a jungle gym. I climbed up and up. Until I reached the top of the gym and shouted, “I’M YAGAMI HIKARI WANT TO MAKE A DECISION OF MY OWN!! ESPESHLY ON THE SUBJECT ON LOVE!!” That gave off my chest on one way then I said one more thing, “Also KOUSHIROU-SAN NO BAKAAAAAAAAA!!!” Then tears were started to roll down my cheek. I didn’t care who saw me I just cried and there was no one their near me and to comfort me. I took more deep breaths and just sit on top of the gym till I felt a hand touched my skin and trying to dry off my tears. I quickly jumped and turned my head to the imposter. It was Koushirou-san.
I was stunned and couldn’t say a word. He smiled and talked still stroking my cheek, “Sorry Hikari-san I didn’t mean to say something wrong over there. You still wanted to know do I believe in density. Hikari-san I’m still thinking about that question to myself too.” I looked at him more confused as ever. He smiled still and said, “I’m adopted.” I looked at him, I didn’t know about that at all! Oniichan and him were friends since forever and he didn’t say anything to us. I just gulped more of my tears and he still continued to talk, “For years I have always wondered that if I have my real parents with me would I still had that adventure three years ago? Would I still have the thirst of knowledge. In the end after I think was it density that my parents get killed. We all don’t know what’s going to happen to us Hikari-san. Love density is not anything real. Its just in people’s mind that’s it.”
‘its just in people’s mind.’ So does it mean that..
“Hikari-san, people just choose who can be with it’s not density. Density is something you fell and know about it all the time.”
I just sniffed and looked at Koushirou-san’s dark eyes. I felt better at it then anything or the best answer any one has ever gave it to me. Or best any answer I have given myself. Then I smiled at him. I felt happy and finally understand one thing out of all this. Density is an interesting word.

We got down from the jungle gym. It felt like forever we were on it though actually it was thirty minutes. That included my massive crying and him holding me to calm down. Though after that we walked out of the park and went to my place slowly though this time we chatted the whole way. There was one question that bothered me the most, “Koushirou-san how did you know I was at this park? Since while I was running I know there must have been other closer parks.”
“That park is where all four of us used to play soccer when we were kids.”
I smiled remembering that Sora-san, Koushirou-san, Oniichan, and I were all playing soccer there everyday. He looked at me and I looked at him. I don’t know but this is the first time I felt this warm felling inside of me. I just said, “Arigatou Koushirou-san.”


We walked to in front of my apartment building. We were going to part there though something hold me back. I grabbed his arm and said, “Can you please come up with me?” I wanted him to be near me. I wanted him to touch my check again when I cry. I want him to be there with me. I looked at him and he was startled but he smiled at me.
“Sure.” I took his arm and he took mine up to the door of my apartment. When I opened the door I felt this rush of air and tugged me more.
“Hikari!!! HIKARI!!! You’re alive!!! I’m so so so happy!!” As the figure who was hugging me gave a kiss every thirty seconds on my cheek. I was stiff. I’m eleven years old know and my brother who is fourteen is hugging me like I just died couple of second’s ago. Then still hugging me tighter he looked at Koushirou-san and glared at him, “Kou~shi~rou~ how dare you to keep Hikari away for about an hour!” Though tugging me closer and be away from Koushirou-san inch by inch. I was blushing really hard.
Though Koushirou-san’s first answer was, “Tai—Taichi-san why are you hugging Hikari-san like she just died couple of seconds ago?”
“I got a call from Miyako-chan, thirty minutes ago asking if Hikari was all okay. Then I said she wasn’t home. Miyako-chan told me the whole story that you should took MY POOR SICK AND WONDERFUL Hikari home thirty-minutes ago.” Oniichan was glaring at Koushirou-san still and hugged me closer with. He had little dogs ears and tail on him growling at the same time. Oh yeah another thing I really disliked other then density, its having a REALLY overprotected brother.
Though I heard him talking, “To my conclusion the only reason you and Hikari are thirty-minutes late is that YOU ASULTED HER!!!” Oniichan pointed his index finger at Koushirou-san. Two words, Overprotected brother. I saw Koushirou-san’s face it was a dumbfouted look on him. I tried to laugh at that look but it was hard to not laugh at it.
“Baka!” I hared a voice. It was my mom who hit Oniichan’s head lightly and then he loosed the grip of the hug. I got out of the hug and then Oniichan looked at me.
“Hikari tell me the truth did Koushirou assaulted you by any way.” Too me his eyes were dead series though before I can answer.
Koushirou-san said, “Tai—taichi-san! I would not do that to Hikari-san!” He was all blushed and flustered. Another little chuckle came to me.
“I don’t know Koushirou…these days when we get older we have feelings for and to do..” Oniichan was caught off by my mom again.
Who did the ‘cough’. We all turned to her and she said, “ First off I don’t want the neighbors to come out again and ask what kind of strange relationship my kids have. Secondly, Koushirou-kun do you want to have supper at our house tonight? Since its really late.”
Koushirou-san looked for a moment then he looked into my eyes. Then he looked at my mom again, “Hai, I would gladly to have supper at your place tonight.”
We all went inside obviously my brother sat between Koushirou-san and I. After Koushirou-san called his parents telling them where he is.
After supper and after thirty minutes reassuring my brother that Koushirou-san did NOT assault me he just helped me with something that was bothering me for months. Oniichan told me that why couldn’t I got to him. I just told him next time I would. Well it was time for Koushirou-san to leave Oniichan said that he would walk him to his house.
I wanted to go too but Koushirou-san said to me in the genkan, “You had a tough day Hikari-san just relax.” I really wanted to go and see him go by.
Tell him something, tell him that I found my answer to the question that I was searching for. Oniichan some how convinced Koushirou-san that Hikari can take walk him down to the apratment complex, of couse with oniichan. When we got there my first words were “Good-bye Koushirou-san. Arigatou for today.” I bowed to him lightly.
“Dotashimashita Hikari-san.” He also bowed lightly too.
Before Koushirou-san and Oniichan left by opening the entrance door of the complex I shouted, “Koushirou-san do you think that Chishiki and Light have a good zing to it ?” I smiled and left to go the elevator. I was humming for awhile in the elevator thinking. ‘Density for love only exist in peoples mind. They don’t effect yours at all. You can choose who to be with.’ The kind of words that Koushirou-san used. I smiled and said out loud, “Yup Chishiki and Light does have the best zing to it of all!” Got off the elevator and hummed the rest of the way to home.
Arigatou Koushirou-san, I have finally found my love density.
Anata da yo.(Its you)


* sigh * Since I really liked the “My Delima: Sora” story a lot actually. I wanted to right other couples too. Well, the reason why I wrote a KoushirouXHikari is that other then becoming a great deal of fan of this coupling. I have also read and heard that Koushirou and Hikari got married at end of 02. I hoped you guise enjoyed “Hikari” side on the dilemma and also if you are a Takahika fan and read through this sorry if it sounded I bashed the coupling. It didn’t mean to happen if I did.

PS. The quote on Taichi and Hikair’s mother used “ I don’t want to neighbors talk more about the strange relationship my kids have” it meant that since Taichi is WAY over protected then a normal brother(okay little less then Yamato). Also if you see them from a far away distant and not knowing that they are brother and sister people would mistaken then as couple. That’s their strange relationship that they have.